Oh that I were an angel

Merry Christmas precious family.  I just wanted to bear my testimony on this letter.  I want you to know that I know God is real.  I feel him in my life and heart so frequently on my mission.  He leads me along green pastures and gives me the things I stand in need of, exactly at the moment I need it.  He loves me from the inside out.  He heals my wounds and fears and insecurities, and teaches me how to heal my beloved Argentine friends wounds and insecurities.  We all have them.  We all need him.  He loves us most in our humility and our need.  He created a world of endless needs, so that there would be endless reasons to break down to our knees and come to him.  I come to him when Im rejoicing over good things.  I come to him when Im crying over pain or dissapointment.  I am not a little girl anymore, but when I pray he scoops me up as if I were, and holds me and loves me and tells me I will be ok.  He gives me many gifts, most importantly my seven from heaven.  Our family.  Thank you precious family for walking my life with me, for loving me, and always forgiving the dumb things I say and do.  I feel like on my mission I have officially joined purpose and hearts with Alma.

Alma 29
1 O that I were an angel, and could have the wish of mine heart, that I might go forth and speak with the trump of God, with a voice to shake the earth, and cry repentance unto every people!

 2 Yea, I would declare unto every soul, as with the voice of thunder, repentance and the plan of redemption, that they should repent and come unto our God, that there might not be more sorrow upon all the face of the earth.

 3 But behold, I am a man, and do sin in my wish; for I ought to be content with the things which the Lord hath allotted unto me.

 8 For behold, the Lord doth grant unto all nations, of their own nation and tongue, to teach his word, yea, in wisdom, all that he seeth fit that they should have; therefore we see that the Lord doth counsel in wisdom, according to that which is just and true.

 9 I know that which the Lord hath commanded me, and I glory in it. I do not glory of myself, but I glory in that which the Lord hath commanded me; yea, and this is my glory, that perhaps I may be an instrument in the hands of God to bring some soul to repentance; and this is my joy.

Oh sometimes I wish I were an angel and could have this wish of my heart, that Tigre would accept our Savior and come to him.  Sometimes when I walk the streets I hear the words in my heart, calling to me and all my Argentine friend "Come to me, Come to me."  I try to look people in the eye and smile at them in the way Jesus would if he were here in my shoes.  It makes me love them more.  I wish one little missionary could do more than Im doing.  I wish I could soften hearts and teach more and walk farther, and give money away to the poor I see.  Oh if I were an angel I would do all those things and more.  But family, as you well know, I am not an angel, I am a human girl, trapped in a human body only able to do such a small amount.

But it does not change that I have a big heart of love for my Savior Jesus Christ.  He lived for me he died for me.  And guess what?  I decided that I will live for him and I will die for him too.  We are partners.  We are best friends.  And we are in love with the people of Argentina.  Im so thankful Im spending this last Christmas of my mission here.  I am going to sing on Christmas at the top of my lungs.  Silent night, Holy night, all is calm, all is bright.  If you could see the sky in Argentina at night, you would love these words even more.  There is somthing magic about the Argentine sky.  Mom and Dad I cant wait for you to see it.

So Merry Christmas you precious people.  Fall on your knees this week, and hear the angel voices.  They call to you in this season especially.  They tell you of your worth.  They tell you that you are his and he will take better care of you and your life than you ever could.  And they tell you you are an angel voice on earth, please use it for good.  Put hope out there.  Put love out there.  And everytime God touches your heart and soul, pay it forward.  I love you guys.  Carry on!!!!!!